Singing

Tonight's the UPM performance. Somehow I really don't want to go for it. It feels far worse than how I felt back when I played the piano for him in Glad Tiding's.

I don't seem to sing like how I would when I perform. Dolce seems to be a whole new meaning to me....... cos I make it sound so cruel. So much for sweetly....

I'm losing grip of my singing again. Mom called me last night, I told her I'm considering burning my vocal exam fees too. She said it's up to me. I know she's upset but I just don't know how else to go about it.

I need to find a way out of this. I'm drowning again...

I hate myself.