Hurts

I've been so stressed out lately, even if I were to sit down and do nothing for a bit, my mind just keeps wondering on the load of stuff I need to complete. I feel so dumb putting myself in this situation sometimes. I tried to look on the bright side of it a few times, but I soon worn out of those positive thinking. I mean, let's face it. This is pure shit...

Tonnes of academic achievements to obtain. Within such a short time span is near to impossible. I get up before the sun comes up everyday and sleeps when its nearing the break of dawn. I survive through the day with a cup of Milo at dawn till night at seven to have a meal and that's it. It's not as though I do it on purpose or anything bu it's just my life ... it's been like that lately ever since the year started. It's getting harder everyday...

More demands... more needs more deadlines... Lesser sleep, lesser food, lesser time to breathe... I wonder when will I see the end of all these or if not, the end of me?

I'm so upset with it at the end of the days.... and I got no one to talk to about it because everybody's probably going through their own schedule and suffering the same... perhaps mine's just a tad heavier... I don't know...

Hurts to feel so alone, Hurts to feel so burdened, Hurts to feel so tired, Hurts to puke after eating, Hurts to sleep without worrying........