I should've blogged this up long ago but I hadn't got the time. My birthday was on the 21st last week. It was awesome all the way. I got up at 7 in the morn and I had to start tidying the house and getting ready with the barbeque party. It was my first birthday party I've ever had so I was kinda hands on on everything. From the foodstuff to the furniture arrangements. Finally 6pm strike and I dashed out to pick a few friends of mine who had transport issues. When I got home, I was so happy that I've got really cool friends who actually helped me with the setting up fire, table and etc. I felt bad too frankly because it was my birthday and they are my guests how could I let them do all the work? But hey, I learnt that a friend in need is a friend indeed. I can't help thanking God over and over again for such a wonderful blessing. My big surprise was that they hung a Happy 18th Birthday banner at my gate. Awwww!!!!!

As the party went on, I caught up with their lives. Though I've missed out a lot last year, now everyone's matured and so fun to be with. I really enjoyed myself that night. I've never had that much of conversation with that much of people for so very long. It was a girl's party so you know, we could talk about everything. The funny thing was, my neighbour held a wedding dinner at the same time, so it was an Indian Kenduri and they actually rented the P.A. system. The music was so loud and it was obviously distracting all of us. I didn't know what to do and I didn't know whether my friends would enjoy myself then. Then A.S started shaking her head.. M.L started shaking her body... G.K started shaking her butt and I was like wow!!!!

Towards the end, they surprised me with a birthday cake. I almost cried when I saw it being lighted up. I've not gotten a whole cake since I was like 14 I suppose. It was really sweet of them. Though the last part, after making a wish and blowing out the candle, they actually attempted to smudge my oily face on the cake. HAHAHAHA!!! They failed, but had a backup plan, that is I have to use my mouth to remove all the candles. Guess what? Candles tasted good actually ( got to know since I chipped off a little on one) Hahahaha...

Since I turned 18 I made iced ribena vodka.. I'm glad everyone enjoyed it. Towards the end I guess everyone got tired so we just sat down and chatted. Lying in my bed that night, it was the best night ever!!!

I just wanna say thanks to X.Y, M.L ,H.E.H, J.L, G.K, AZ, A.S, G.L, S, J.C, Ms. P, and my family.
I hope you folks will send me a copy of the photos soon.

I learnt a very important lesson yesterday. That is as what I typed for my title of this post. Let's just say I was a little out of my usual kind all of a sudden. Probably I was so annoyed being couped up in college. So I sort of wondered a certain issue of my friend's life. Its seriously not my business, but I just got so itchy mouthed I questioned him.. He was rather busy with his homework loading up and so on, and dumb me had to go and interrupt people's life. I think I deserved a slap. Anyways, he got curious as I started the topic, so from SMS we moved on to MSN..

His MSN was on and off over and over again. Probably his wireless system wasn't favouring to our desires. He tried coming on repeatedly, finally the bits and pieces were out and the last thing I ever wanted to happen was that he got mad.. At that point I was quite stunt, everything that happened in that two hours seemed to re-run again in my mind. I started apologizing, but he called it truce. I hate it when he does that, I don't want it to sound as though I need to be forgiven just because someone offended me before hand. I mean, I know I'm in the wrong.

This friend of mine, I don't know what he thinks but over the years, he sorta been my buddy. Someone I could talk to. Seriously I enjoy talking to him all the time even if it was just to be for 5 minutes. 24 hours passed and still nothing from him, there's nothing else I can do now. It was a stupid mistake that an 18 year old shouldn't have done. I'm supposed to be matured enough to know what's right to be done and what's not.

Sigh.... what's done is done, it hurts to know I offended him because that's not what I wanted to happen. Which is why they say curiosity kills the cat. I think I just killed my own friendship with him. Let's just pray things would change as the days go by before Sunday. If it doesn't, I don't think I'd be able to ever face him again.

I remembered in Sunday School in church I used to sing this song:

Don't say something, that isn't right,
Better listen, to this advice,
When your mouth is making fun,
You can really hurt someone,
So keep your lips together and... SHHH...

Why oh why did I not apply that? Its his life, who am I to question?

Sincerely, I am sorry D, I really didn't mean to.

I thought its just my luck,

At this point of life I'm in,

Everything seems to be falling apart,

Nothing seems to be whole,

Everyone comes and leaves,

Quicker than passengers at the subway,

Seriously, I thought life was at wits end...



A knock came to my door,

Then the second one and so forth,

People whom I thought would never care anymore,

Appeared in my life again,

It was a bittersweet moment,

Not knowing the true intentions of those who cared,

Hating them when they only meant love..



It was then I noticed someone,

That someone who's been with me all this while,

May not be every second of my life,

But sure is present whenever I succeed,

Whenever I fail,

Whenever I feel ugly and disgusted...



That person never failed me,

Maybe it was out of friendship,

But sure saved me from more heartbreaks,

Never stopped me from anything,

Maybe not wanting to interfere,

I wish that person did..



In everything I do,

supported me through and through,

Never spotted any flaw in me,

It felt as though I was so blind before,

But I can see clearly now,

Sadly.....



I think I'm a little too late,

I really don't know,

If only I could turn back time,

I finally met white chocolate,

But I think caramel appeared sooner than I did



Life's just like that,

Looking out from the window,

You see everything you want,

Standing on from where you looked,

Makes you feel so small..



When you've finally thought you achieved that something,

Thought you've finally found that someone,

Something else pops up,

Just like wind change,

You won't know when..



Being at this point of life,

I realised that it hurts even though I'm recuperating,

Even if I'm healed it still hurts,

But things don't just happen the way you want it all the time.



Life is just like a stage show as quoted by Shakespeare,

Everyone's merely playing a role,

Though I really wanted certain things and certain people to be as how I wished,

It all depends on the character you're playing,

And whatever you'er playing depends on the script writer..



You spotted the last slice of cheesecake at the baker's window,

As you step in it was bought by another person,

You finally met someone you think would be,

He answers a call, "Baby, what type of milk would you like?"

You think you know what you wanna do in life,

When you're 26 you'd be wondering what are you doing in this field..



Nobody knows anything,

Life is just that ironic,

Like it or not we don't have a choice,

I wish so many wishes,

Of things I really want to re-do,

But it'll never happen,

I'll just have to take it with me,

A scar, a memory, an experience,

For the future that awaits me..



Even though life is ironic at most times,

I may not know for sure how to face it,

What'll happen next,

But I know that the scrip writer is never wrong,

He plans us all out the way it should be,

The right way,

After all's been done,

It'll be worth it..